do I love?

Do I love him? DO I lust him? Is he the guy I love? Bad tings has happened in the past but good things to.. I don't know how to work with this. I make a list of good and bad things they both look good and bad too. I love himI lust him I feel the pain with in. The tender and grateful and powerful soro. The feeling of grateness and empty too. Wandering if he can be the love that is true. Name is kyle. I love his style the way he walks and talks to me. Some of the time makes me feel free.

The SERVIVER

This is based on a true story please be advised to not laugh. This is a true story.

There was this girl that had a life and everything she wanted. She was loved and cared for. Till one day she wanted to go with her friends to a party and hang out and the crazy teenage thing.
The parents let her go, She said she loved them so. She left out the door. Her mom fell to the floor crying in her arms. Hoping she wont be in harm. Feeling worm and calm inside her friends drove off into the night sky. The mother watched as the car ran the the fog. When the girl got to the party her date drank and drank till drunk... they were trying to stuff her into the trunk. She jumped out to fast for them to ketch. She ran real fast as fast as she could but her legs couldn't handle as fast as she could. she fell tot he ground with a stumble and a thump. Now that poor girl has a big bump. Her head is killing her throbbing to the bone, hopping sometime she will get home. She cries as she stumbles to her feet a car dives next to her telling her to take a seat. Before she could realize she jumped in the car when the door slammed and looked to her side. It was her date. Running to hide. The car was going way to fast. Next thing you know the car was stopped at last. But its not a sight you would want to pass. She was in a car accident her body was throne way to fast. It will be imposable for her spirit to last. Her date was found dead along the road. The girl herd there was another car involved. She was carried on a stretcher and woke up in a hospital. She asked to see her mom and dad. But that was all she had. The nurse sulked and said with a breath. That other car was your mom and dad. The girl cries and cries some more.. She sead to herself underneath her breath. I should not go. "mom, dad, I love you so" as she bends her head and cries real soft she asks to go to the roof top. She hangs her head over the building crying knowing she did a bad thing. She neels her head and cries. Why did my mom and dad have to die. :( She stands up with a last look on her face she turns around with a sad look on her face and leans over backwards. She falls off the building with a huge crash. Hoping she will die and never come back. Her eyes open up wide, Knowing she will see her mom and dad way up high.

GLASSES COME BACKGL

The worst thing you can imagine is yourself in glasses.
Here I am 15 year old with glasses.
I had them when i was little and now I have them again because now im far sited again.!
years have gone by and wishing that this day would never come the fright of having geeky glasses. :(
once you take your glasses off.. you feel like you had them once you don't need them again. But that is wrong. People beware of how you take care of your eyes because later on in the future this can happen to you.

TO MUCH POWER

I am a girl with to much power,
When I fight I fight with fear,
Fighting till I have you near,
I hold you tight not letting go,
Hoping some day you will love me so,
Cant you see, what you mean to me,
Im fighting for my life,
to keep you safe,
Im not like other girls,
Im not like ordinary girls,
I am that girl with all the power,
I am the girl that spreads happiness and flowers.
I kick and scream and fight till the death,
I give you this charm,
to keep you from harm,
Im sorry if i let you down,
Knowing that i am just a girl.,
Maybe power is not all that grate knowing that power can fill with hate,
I will fly away fly away far,
to a place with flowers for a girl with to much powers.

Im still here

Im still here even though im gone,
Im still here to help carry you along,
Along the short path and the long path ahead,
Don't worry about were you lay your sweet head,
For I am here protecting you,
Your angel above that's haunting you,
For good to bad, from o.k to grate,
I will make you live in a world with no hate,
My fear is not to see you frown,
the fear I have is to let you down,
I can see you siting next to me,
I rap my arm around your back,
Making light when its black,
Hold my hand and you will see,
all the things your meant to be,
If you believe that I am here,
Then you will see,
That the power in me,
Someday you will be free.!!!!!

Crying girl

I sit and sulk and take it in.
Waiting for the day to end.
looking for the very end,
hoping soon day will end.
Hoping i sleep my way threw the end,
Hopefully threw to a deadly end.
I sit and sulk and dream my fears away.
Hoping I to will be an angel someday.

Dark girl

I am the dark girl that lost her light,
I cant find a way to fight,
I hold my stress in till it lets go.
Who knows when it will blow,
I cry at night knowing im all alone,
Holding my blankly,
close to my heart knowing,
im here left in the dark.

down again

Down again on my own wandering were is my home.
I found the courage to be strong. But I need strength to hold on.
There is a guy who helped me threw the good and bad and what was new.
He came back in my life. But will he stay threw the night?
I have cried all night and cried all day trying to find my way.
I'm lost in a dream, a dream of fear. that one day I will stay here.
Am I the one? The one who has to go?
Am I the chosen one that goes down again..
once again im down.. down to the ground trying to find my way.
Both sad and happy but gloomy at the same time.
Finding out if this is a crime.
depressed, miserable, downcast I fell with a blast.
I knew it would not last. I knew from the past. Why is life hard. why is life hard. I am down.
down to the grown trying to redeem, This taruble dream that sees to be. A PUT DOWN.

cousin cousin

cousin cousin my dear cousin,
i love you my dear cousin,
you helped me threw good and bad,
I had the best life I ever had,
Till this day I have to go,
dwelling in my soro,
knowing im leaving tomorrow,
I hope to see you some day,
Wishing I will get my way,
I will pray at night and day wishing I had a say,
rather to leave or stay.

friends

Friends are good to have,
threw the good and bad,
threw weak and strong,
we all learn to get along,
we dance and sing,
wandering about everything,
what it would be like,
me leaving at night,
wandering in fear and fright,
how scary it would be leaving at night,
friends will help you threw short and long,
its a good thing true friends get along,
having a hard time to sleep,
when your siting bent over in weep,
knowing your friends will miss you so,
but in your heart you know,
you have to go..

THE KISS TO BE

we sit and stair,
wile he brushes my hair,
how we will look when we stair,
in to each others eyes with a glare,
saying our vows and saying I do,
with a kiss to brake the bond,
hes the wish i wished upon,
Seeing my name change oh so fast,
This might end in a delightful gasp,
we whisper to each other,
that we will always love one another,
no matter what we will always be together!

week end ends

Weekend ends on day 3.
Even when its meant to be,
all we wanted was him and me,
both together feeling free,
in the ocean and in the sea,
We already know this was meant to be,
me and him, him and me,
are together cant you see,
our love for each other is meant to be.
by kerri stone

strut it

strut they way you want to strut it,
live the way you wanna live it,
be there person you want to be,
and I know for sure,
you will feel free.!!!

look in hus eyes

I look in his eyes and I see the love of my life.
I hold his hand tight like he would let go,
I dream of him each night, glowing bright,
showing me the path that's right,
He hold my hand and brings me a long,
He sits down and sings me a song,
His voice so sweet and tender and near,
Drew my love I love you dear.

The run away

Run away run away run away free,
run away run away run away flee,
I am the girl that has a stress life,
It cam close to be ended my a knife,
my loved one Vicky,
helped me threw things that were Icky,
But now its time for me to say goodbye,
I run away run away run away far,
I run away run away to the north star,
My family and friends wont care if im gone,
Who cares who cares if im around,
Who cares who cares If I get found,
Im just a girl trying to see,
All the things with in me,
I leave for him,
I leave for me,
I leave them in a fantasy,
They think im joking they think im wrong,
I will show them im right all along,
im leavin when may comes,
I can here it in my ear the way it hums,
That I dont need to be here, not with these bums,
I found my path to the road I witch will fallow,
That way now my heart wont feel hollow.

bad night

Last night was a bad night nothing was good at all,
My name is Kerri, nickname is cherry, or peanut,
last night was the last night I thought about moving.
I was kinda close to choosing to stay home. But when every thing broke down last night that was it. I knew I was leaving for sure,
my brother hurts me my mom yells for no reason and my dad always tells me that im braking his heart,
But for a fact that the hole family has been braking my heart and has been stressful all this time. I told them a lot that I would be moving they never thought this day would come, but I tell yea I had enough im done with the pedy stuff im done with the acting Im done with the warning and getting down on my knees for every one .... Im not doing this to be mean im leaving for me and me only people think im leaving because of this guy... but truthfully Im leaving because the feeling I have at home.... makes me want to DIE.

twins goodbyes

I have a twin her name is Teressa, she is m friend my family and my sister, We found out one day I will be leaving. I say my goodbyes to her for me leaving,
I love you sis with all my heart knowing we will be apart, Siting here by your side, makes me glad and happy inside, But knowing im leaving and watching you work, makes me sad and feeling bad, that this might be the last month we will have,
When im by your side i don't fell the need to hide,
But listen twin sister, from the start I love you from the bottom of my heart.

faster and faster

Ever day comes and every day goes. Good times come and good time go. Free dome rings in my ear knowing some day ill vanish in thin air, Leaving home never to return knowing some day I to will be herd. If I leave maybe they will see, All the stress they put on me. I have been here for so long, I know for sure this family don't get along. I have herd it once and I have herd it twice, Stay here we will be nice, I gave them chances and nothing has changed I gave them a warning, I will be leaving in the morning, They cry and cry, to try to make me fee bad, But ill tell you, this is the worst life I ever had, I have been here once and tree times the charm, I'm not going back, in the way of harm, I will live my dreams to the way I want them, I will live my life like it was my last, Spend your time with the one you love, because kids these days grow up to fast.
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my last goodbye

I am that girl can't you see. I feel like im hurt and crushed inside.. to let people know this is my last good bye. ~~~~~ dear cuzz,
I will always be here no matter what... even if we are far apart I will always be in your heart. Listen to the wind and watch the night sky.. I will travel with the stars as I drift by... To let you know some day I will come back to say hi. Keep your chin up for all we have is one life. We will live it up and happiness instead of sorrow. Even if I leave tomorrow. :( I will pray each night. And take each date as if to see you was to late. Lets spend it up and make it last for this month will go way to fast. REMEMBER this in your head.. you always have me, from far apart you are always in my heart. <3

one month!!!!!

I know this is tragic. Its hard for me to see how its happening my self. But to me I know this is right... In one month I am leaving everything.. maybe people will realize what is going on when a dear loved one is gone. Have you ever loved a cuzz or a family that don't want you to leave or dont want you to go or be out of there sight.. Well I have a cuzz just like that.... shes smart. cool, and all of the above. Its hard for her to understand that things in life were meant to be changed to have a new beginning. People dont understand my life that much I am not myself at school. When I am home I am me. I am the lonely girl that no one sees. That girl that is me. I hope poeple can see that i am the girl that is chosen to leave. People don't believe that if you talk to god he will talk back... when I talk to him.. i feel the feeling of leaving,... That if I leave they ( the people) will see .. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU GOT TILL ITS GONE!!!! The only one that knows is my loving cuzz.. i love you cuzz with all my heart.. not mater what we will never be worlds apart. <3

my life

I got it ..... I knew it was time..... I knew I should do it... I think I know I should do it...
I think im ready.... no....no... I know im ready. This is my life... ill spent it the way I want it... being home isn't home to me... its misery.... home isn't home no more... its jail to me....
I have been hurt a lot... and torn apart beaten and mangled and tangled in side..... Now I have a chance to feel free inside.... I know my mom will hate me and my dad will to... but this isn't just about them.. its about me too. I have feelings and I have rights... this is my life. And im guna spend it right!!

☹ ITS TIME ☹

Time for me to stop and think.
I am a 15 year old girl that needs to get out.
Problems are coming and going.
I get beet up at home now.
My life is turning around again.
I need to get out.
Sick of brother punching me hitting and bothering me.
Should I leave? Should I go?
Is it the right think? Or should I let go?
My life has stopped in its tracks.
Now my life don't know were to go.
I should just stop and put life on hold.
I wanna leave right now.
knowing there is a better place.
But when I look at my mom.
I dont like the look on her face.
I cry at night wishing there is hope.
That some day it will come true.
That when I leave Ill be with you

THE LOST ONE

I am the lost one. The one that no one can find. I am the chosen one. The one that is left behind. Years went by and bad things have happened. Now I have that man in my life that will love me and cherish every moment in in our life. Days go by and still there is love. People walk by. With there eyes strait at us. Thinking that they are the best. Whispering to themselves. About time that girl has no stress. My life is better with him by my side. Knowing ill be safe along this ride. Ill never have to hide from my life again. For drew my love has come back again!

LOOKING DOWN

I look down from way up high,
seeing the love that means so much to me,
the one that is crying in agony,
im here to help threw bad and good,
all threw our child hood,
I'm not gone,
for I am still here,
im with you all the time,
even if u make a crime,
I talk to you with powerful words,
a lot of them you have already herd,
when im up high in the sky,
im still there by your side,
look to your left and to your right,
if you believe in me,
you will never leave my sight,
don't worry my love for I am right there,
look deep down,
with in your heart,
believe in me,
I was there from the start.

me and you

me an you,
were never blue,
even if its not that true,
all i felt with in is you,

your my love in the sky,
we wish we would never die,
we fly high,
in the sky,
past the clouds and birds so sly,
over the sun and into the night sky,
you whisper to me,
our LOVE will never DIE.

end of day

The day has come to an end,
were I must dream and pretend,
wile my eyes shut I look at you,
and say to myself my own goodbyes,
Hoping in the morning ill open my eyes,
to the wonderful face,
that seas to me,
I love you sweetie,
as he touches my face,
with a small grin he
he wipes his chin,
and lays next to me,
and starts to hug me,
i fall asleep in his arms knowing im safe from all harm.

home alone

Home alone with nothing to do,
Home alone wishing I was with you,
You make my day fun,
you make my day happy,
you help me see good instead of crappy,
I wish I was with you, my dearest friend,
I wish I was with you till the very end,
I'm home alone with nothing to do,
Wishing and wishing,
that I was with you.