Saturday, June 19, 2010
All gone
i feel lost... gone done for.... i lost the love i ever loved... because of parents... what should I do??!!! some one help???? no one can :(
Monday, June 14, 2010
now im gone...in 21 days

in 21 days I am leaving,
in 21 one days i will be packing,
in 20 days I will be working and packing,
in 19 days,,, i will look at my old things,
in 18 days I will see what I have become,
in 17 days i will thank every one for being there for everything and being there when I needed them.
in 16 days, I will pack the rest of the down stairs,
in 15 days we start looking around
in 14 days I pack the upstairs,
in 13 days I go to my friends house and say my last good bye,
in 12 days, I see my cuzz and tell her that no matter what she will always be in my heart
in 11 days. I sit in my empty room with nothing but a backpack filled witha week of cloths and think,
in 10 days...... I sit..... and listen
in 9 days I walk outside and look at the sky
in 8 days.... I give some people I wont see again a hug good bye,
in 7 days i pack even more,
in 6 days i relax and find my friends to hang out,
in 5 days I walk around town trying to remember what i see,
in 4 days. I reach the day i wont stop crying.
in 3 days, my heart falls to the bottom of its pit and tries to beet but cant,
in 2 days. I wright a poem to every one and give it to them before i leave. I give them a hug goodbye and tell them I will always be with them
In 1 day. I give every one a hug and cry and feel the pain of leaving family and friends but hte most im scarred about leaving is my loving cuzz and cuzz in law (vicky and kris) i lvoe you guys and make sure you guys know it.!!!!!!
remember maybe we will be miles apart be we will always be in each others hearts :)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
PAIN

Feeling lost with regret and sorrow. Feeling the erg to just get up and leave, leave everything behind. Walk out the door like nothing is wrong. Looking at pictures from the past. Feeling the agony and pain rush threw your vanes with horror. Feeling all the dishonorable, and vicious poison set into your skin. Feeling the pain and anger work threw your body. Try to walk but fall and cant get up. Feeling down all the time. Feeling like losing and dying right there. Run away from everything. Even the ones who care. Scream but no one hears you. Talk but no words come out.
Marks on your arm from cutting. Raiser sharp blade piercing threw your skin. With a runny river of blood. Motions to the floor. As you fall on your knees not knowing what to do. You feel the pain of terror set in. The lost from the found. The light from the dark. The high from the low. The under from above, The haven from hell life is only a big stair well. For the top I will not reach for I have fallen. And can not get up. For the next step is to far out of reach.
by kerri stone
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
The new begining
long lost sister

I have a sister that looks like me,
I have a sister that is just like me,we laugh and sing and play all day,
till I make a big mistake,
I cry at night and some during the day I say sorry,
I beg for mercy,
Trying to get sympathy to show her I can change,
I am grown I am strong, I am your sister that will carry on,
Please hold me tight for I cant do this alone,
for when I have a week moment,
Its a family member like you that keeps me strong.
Thank you to my family Vicky M. and Teressa H.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Soothin rock



To day is a new day to follow your heart,
Even from the very start,
I wait on our rock,
And sing a tune,
That maybe you will come by soon,
As my feet touch the water,
so soothing and calm,
You come by and hum along,
As we look into each others eyes,
seeing the future and the past,
all the happy and the sad,
even if it is bad,
we are living the life we have,
to the highest and the fullest,
not for the shortest but for the longest,
but as you hold my hand,
so happy and soft,
I think to myself,
we were meant to be,
just me and you and you and me,
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Best friend

He is my love my hero my friend,
we are together till the very end,
we share our secrets and our most powerful words,
Even tho one no one has ever herd,
We dance and sing and have a good time,
to bad this might be the very last time,
My stuff is packed and out the door,
I give a hug and run out the door,
for i leave to KY,
and might not come back,
your still me best friend and nothing can ever change that. :)
THE FOLLOWING
WAITING LOVE
Thursday, May 20, 2010
WALK ALONE

I walk alone this lonely earth.
wanting more then grief and sorrow.
every breath I take.
Each move I make.
I have to remember im in this state.
I have been lost for so long.
Trying my hardest to carry on.
I look down at the rocks under my feet.
seeing that all I can see.
I look up at the sky so gloomy and cryptic
That all I see is a mysterious sky

So dead but alive.
swirling in time.
trying to find someone that is in my shoes.
But no luck I see I will loose.
I lost my way......... I lost my touch... I am lost.
So here I am on earth all by myself.
Feeling your heart beet with out help.
Knowing im the girl who,
WALKS ALONE
stolen away

Stolen away from your life,
being pushed and pulled feeling like another life form walking this earth.
Like a dead zombie here for no reason.
Feeling your bones crack and tare.
As you walk alone all scarred inside.
Every day you run and hide.
away from the thoughtless people.
who is mortal and who is immortal.
Who can see your pain your in.
And who is laughing at the thought.
As you sit alone on the ground hurt and shriveled up.
You cry and cry feeling tears that burn your skin as they roll down your cheek.
they hit the floor like nothings wrong and disappear like nothing happened.
How can you get away........... How can you get away......
how did these people take my life.
It is STOLEN AWAY... :(
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
beet hard


Have you ever gotten beet?
have tears roll down your face?
crying for agony wanting to get away getting pushed and shoved to the ground not being able to get up. Being punched and pulled on and kicked and stomped with fierce pain piercing threw your skin? finding out that its hard tot tell your own parent that you were beet up?
When you finely get away. and feel the tear roll down your face and watch it land on the ground wande

Monday, May 3, 2010
sweet 16

My name is kerri im having my sweet 16 :)
i get to have any one i want to come. This party will be a really big party but I need my friends to be able to come. I have everything elts I just need my friends. haha. I will be turning 16 daa sweet 16 but at my sweet 16 i will be announcing the people that Have helped me and the friends that have cared about me and there will also be games and competitions that you have to win.... and at the end were we tally everything up the winner or winners get gifts... please help me and go to my party it should be a blast .... :)
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
do I love?

Do I love him? DO I lust him? Is he the guy I love? Bad tings has happened in the past but good things to.. I don't know how to work with this. I make a list of good and bad things they both look good and bad too. I love himI lust him I feel the pain with in. The tender and grateful and powerful soro. The feeling of grateness and empty too. Wandering if he can be the love that is true. Name is kyle. I love his style the way he walks and talks to me. Some of the time makes me feel free.
Monday, April 26, 2010
The SERVIVER

This is based on a true story please be advised to not laugh. This is a true story.
There was this girl that had a life and everything she wanted. She was loved and cared for. Till one day she wanted to go with her friends to a party and hang out and the crazy teenage thing.
The parents let her go, She said she loved them so. She left out the door. Her mom fell to the floor crying in her arms. Hoping she wont be in harm. Feeling worm and calm inside her friends drove off into the night sky. The mother watched as the car ran the the fog. When the girl got to the party her date drank and drank till drunk... they were trying to stuff her into the trunk. She jumped out to fast for them to ketch. She ran real fast as fast as she could but her legs couldn't handle as fast as she could. she fell tot he ground with a stumble and a thump. Now that poor girl has a big bump. Her head is killing her throbbing to the bone, hopping sometime she will get home. She cries as she stumbles to her feet a car dives next to her telling her to take a seat. Before she could realize she jumped in the car when the door slammed and looked to her side. It was her date. Running to hide. The car was going way to fast. Next thing you know the car was stopped at last. But its not a sight you would want to pass. She was in a car accident her body was throne way to fast. It will be imposable for her spirit to last. Her date was found dead along the road. The girl herd there was another car involved. She was carried on a stretcher and woke up in a hospital. She asked to see her mom and dad. But that was all she had. The nurse sulked and said with a breath. That other car was your mom and dad. The girl cries and cries some more.. She sead to herself underneath her breath. I should not go. "mom, dad, I love you so" as she bends her head and cries real soft she asks to go to the roof top. She hangs her head over the building crying knowing she did a bad thing. She neels her head and cries. Why did my mom and dad have to die. :( She stands up with a last look on her face she turns around with a sad look on her face and leans over backwards. She falls off the building with a huge crash. Hoping she will die and never come back. Her eyes open up wide, Knowing she will see her mom and dad way up high.
GLASSES COME BACKGL

The worst thing you can imagine is yourself in glasses.
Here I am 15 year old with glasses.
I had them when i was little and now I have them again because now im far sited again.!
years have gone by and wishing that this day would never come the fright of having geeky glasses. :(
once you take your glasses off.. you feel like you had them once you don't need them again. But that is wrong. People beware of how you take care of your eyes because later on in the future this can happen to you.
Friday, April 16, 2010
TO MUCH POWER

I am a girl with to much power,
When I fight I fight with fear,
Fighting till I have you near,
I hold you tight not letting go,
Hoping some day you will love me so,
Cant you see, what you mean to me,
Im fighting for my life,
to keep you safe,
Im not like other girls,
Im not like ordinary girls,
I am that girl with all the power,
I am the girl that spreads happiness and flowers.
I kick and scream and fight till the death,
I give you this charm,
to keep you from harm,
Im sorry if i let you down,
Knowing that i am just a girl.,
Maybe power is not all that grate knowing that power can fill with hate,
I will fly away fly away far,
to a place with flowers for a girl with to much powers.
Im still here

Im still here even though im gone,
Im still here to help carry you along,
Along the short path and the long path ahead,
Don't worry about were you lay your sweet head,
For I am here protecting you,
Your angel above that's haunting you,
For good to bad, from o.k to grate,
I will make you live in a world with no hate,
My fear is not to see you frown,
the fear I have is to let you down,
I can see you siting next to me,
I rap my arm around your back,
Making light when its black,
Hold my hand and you will see,
all the things your meant to be,
If you believe that I am here,
Then you will see,
That the power in me,
Someday you will be free.!!!!!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Crying girl
Dark girl
down again

Down again on my own wandering were is my home.
I found the courage to be strong. But I need strength to hold on.
There is a guy who helped me threw the good and bad and what was new.
He came back in my life. But will he stay threw the night?
I have cried all night and cried all day trying to find my way.
I'm lost in a dream, a dream of fear. that one day I will stay here.
Am I the one? The one who has to go?
Am I the chosen one that goes down again..
once again im down.. down to the ground trying to find my way.
Both sad and happy but gloomy at the same time.
Finding out if this is a crime.
depressed, miserable, downcast I fell with a blast.
I knew it would not last. I knew from the past. Why is life hard. why is life hard. I am down.
down to the grown trying to redeem, This taruble dream that sees to be. A PUT DOWN.
Monday, April 12, 2010
cousin cousin

cousin cousin my dear cousin,
i love you my dear cousin,
you helped me threw good and bad,
I had the best life I ever had,
Till this day I have to go,
dwelling in my soro,
knowing im leaving tomorrow,
I hope to see you some day,
Wishing I will get my way,
I will pray at night and day wishing I had a say,
rather to leave or stay.
friends

Friends are good to have,
threw the good and bad,
threw weak and strong,
we all learn to get along,
we dance and sing,
wandering about everything,
what it would be like,
me leaving at night,
wandering in fear and fright,
how scary it would be leaving at night,
friends will help you threw short and long,
its a good thing true friends get along,
having a hard time to sleep,
when your siting bent over in weep,
knowing your friends will miss you so,
but in your heart you know,
you have to go..
THE KISS TO BE

we sit and stair,
wile he brushes my hair,
how we will look when we stair,
in to each others eyes with a glare,
saying our vows and saying I do,
with a kiss to brake the bond,
hes the wish i wished upon,
Seeing my name change oh so fast,
This might end in a delightful gasp,
we whisper to each other,
that we will always love one another,
no matter what we will always be together!
week end ends
Friday, April 9, 2010
strut it
look in hus eyes

I look in his eyes and I see the love of my life.
I hold his hand tight like he would let go,
I dream of him each night, glowing bright,
showing me the path that's right,
He hold my hand and brings me a long,
He sits down and sings me a song,
His voice so sweet and tender and near,
Drew my love I love you dear.
The run away

Run away run away run away free,
run away run away run away flee,
I am the girl that has a stress life,
It cam close to be ended my a knife,
my loved one Vicky,
helped me threw things that were Icky,
But now its time for me to say goodbye,
I run away run away run away far,
I run away run away to the north star,
My family and friends wont care if im gone,
Who cares who cares if im around,
Who cares who cares If I get found,
Im just a girl trying to see,
All the things with in me,
I leave for him,
I leave for me,
I leave them in a fantasy,
They think im joking they think im wrong,
I will show them im right all along,
im leavin when may comes,
I can here it in my ear the way it hums,
That I dont need to be here, not with these bums,
I found my path to the road I witch will fallow,
That way now my heart wont feel hollow.
bad night

Last night was a bad night nothing was good at all,
My name is Kerri, nickname is cherry, or peanut,
last night was the last night I thought about moving.
I was kinda close to choosing to stay home. But when every thing broke down last night that was it. I knew I was leaving for sure,
my brother hurts me my mom yells for no reason and my dad always tells me that im braking his heart,
But for a fact that the hole family has been braking my heart and has been stressful all this time. I told them a lot that I would be moving they never thought this day would come, but I tell yea I had enough im done with the pedy stuff im done with the acting Im done with the warning and getting down on my knees for every one .... Im not doing this to be mean im leaving for me and me only people think im leaving because of this guy... but truthfully Im leaving because the feeling I have at home.... makes me want to DIE.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
twins goodbyes

I have a twin her name is Teressa, she is m friend my family and my sister, We found out one day I will be leaving. I say my goodbyes to her for me leaving,
I love you sis with all my heart knowing we will be apart, Siting here by your side, makes me glad and happy inside, But knowing im leaving and watching you work, makes me sad and feeling bad, that this might be the last month we will have,
When im by your side i don't fell the need to hide,
But listen twin sister, from the start I love you from the bottom of my heart.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
faster and faster

Ever day comes and every day goes. Good times come and good time go. Free dome rings in my ear knowing some day ill vanish in thin air, Leaving home never to return knowing some day I to will be herd. If I leave maybe they will see, All the stress they put on me. I have been here for so long, I know for sure this family don't get along. I have herd it once and I have herd it twice, Stay here we will be nice, I gave them chances and nothing has changed I gave them a warning, I will be leaving in the morning, They cry and cry, to try to make me fee bad, But ill tell you, this is the worst life I ever had, I have been here once and tree times the charm, I'm not going back, in the way of harm, I will live my dreams to the way I want them, I will live my life like it was my last, Spend your time with the one you love, because kids these days grow up to fast.
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my last goodbye

I am that girl can't you see. I feel like im hurt and crushed inside.. to let people know this is my last good bye. ~~~~~ dear cuzz,
I will always be here no matter what... even if we are far apart I will always be in your heart. Listen to the wind and watch the night sky.. I will travel with the stars as I drift by... To let you know some day I will come back to say hi. Keep your chin up for all we have is one life. We will live it up and happiness instead of sorrow. Even if I leave tomorrow. :( I will pray each night. And take each date as if to see you was to late. Lets spend it up and make it last for this month will go way to fast. REMEMBER this in your head.. you always have me, from far apart you are always in my heart. <3
one month!!!!!

I know this is tragic. Its hard for me to see how its happening my self. But to me I know this is right... In one month I am leaving everything.. maybe people will realize what is going on when a dear loved one is gone. Have you ever loved a cuzz or a family that don't want you to leave or dont want you to go or be out of there sight.. Well I have a cuzz just like that.... shes smart. cool, and all of the above. Its hard for her to understand that things in life were meant to be changed to have a new beginning. People dont understand my life that much I am not myself at school. When I am home I am me. I am the lonely girl that no one sees. That girl that is me. I hope poeple can see that i am the girl that is chosen to leave. People don't believe that if you talk to god he will talk back... when I talk to him.. i feel the feeling of leaving,... That if I leave they ( the people) will see .. YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU GOT TILL ITS GONE!!!! The only one that knows is my loving cuzz.. i love you cuzz with all my heart.. not mater what we will never be worlds apart. <3
Monday, April 5, 2010
my life

I got it ..... I knew it was time..... I knew I should do it... I think I know I should do it...
I think im ready.... no....no... I know im ready. This is my life... ill spent it the way I want it... being home isn't home to me... its misery.... home isn't home no more... its jail to me....
I have been hurt a lot... and torn apart beaten and mangled and tangled in side..... Now I have a chance to feel free inside.... I know my mom will hate me and my dad will to... but this isn't just about them.. its about me too. I have feelings and I have rights... this is my life. And im guna spend it right!!
☹ ITS TIME ☹

Time for me to stop and think.
I am a 15 year old girl that needs to get out.
Problems are coming and going.
I get beet up at home now.
My life is turning around again.
I need to get out.
Sick of brother punching me hitting and bothering me.
Should I leave? Should I go?
Is it the right think? Or should I let go?
My life has stopped in its tracks.
Now my life don't know were to go.
I should just stop and put life on hold.
I wanna leave right now.
knowing there is a better place.
But when I look at my mom.
I dont like the look on her face.
I cry at night wishing there is hope.
That some day it will come true.
That when I leave Ill be with you
THE LOST ONE

I am the lost one. The one that no one can find. I am the chosen one. The one that is left behind. Years went by and bad things have happened. Now I have that man in my life that will love me and cherish every moment in in our life. Days go by and still there is love. People walk by. With there eyes strait at us. Thinking that they are the best. Whispering to themselves. About time that girl has no stress. My life is better with him by my side. Knowing ill be safe along this ride. Ill never have to hide from my life again. For drew my love has come back again!
Friday, April 2, 2010
LOOKING DOWN

I look down from way up high,
seeing the love that means so much to me,
the one that is crying in agony,
im here to help threw bad and good,
all threw our child hood,
I'm not gone,
for I am still here,
im with you all the time,
even if u make a crime,
I talk to you with powerful words,
a lot of them you have already herd,
when im up high in the sky,
im still there by your side,
look to your left and to your right,
if you believe in me,
you will never leave my sight,
don't worry my love for I am right there,
look deep down,
with in your heart,
believe in me,
I was there from the start.
me and you
Thursday, April 1, 2010
end of day
The day has come to an end,
were I must dream and pretend,
wile my eyes shut I look at you,
and say to myself my own goodbyes,
Hoping in the morning ill open my eyes,
to the wonderful face,
that seas to me,
I love you sweetie,
as he touches my face,
with a small grin he
he wipes his chin,
and lays next to me,
and starts to hug me,
i fall asleep in his arms knowing im safe from all harm.
were I must dream and pretend,
wile my eyes shut I look at you,
and say to myself my own goodbyes,
Hoping in the morning ill open my eyes,
to the wonderful face,
that seas to me,
I love you sweetie,
as he touches my face,
with a small grin he
he wipes his chin,
and lays next to me,
and starts to hug me,
i fall asleep in his arms knowing im safe from all harm.
home alone

Home alone with nothing to do,
Home alone wishing I was with you,
You make my day fun,
you make my day happy,
you help me see good instead of crappy,
I wish I was with you, my dearest friend,
I wish I was with you till the very end,
I'm home alone with nothing to do,
Wishing and wishing,
that I was with you.
Monday, March 29, 2010
all to her
shes my friend and my cuzz,
She is the only one that gives a fuzz,
We have been friends for so long,
its tragic that I have to move along.
Remember one thing,
When you wake up in the morning
listen real close as you could here,
my voice whispering in the air,
calling your name for you to here,
all the things that keep me near.
are all the things you say so can here,
the one that wont let me get a buzz.
is my true cuzzen that gives a fuzz.
She is the only one that gives a fuzz,
We have been friends for so long,
its tragic that I have to move along.
Remember one thing,
When you wake up in the morning
listen real close as you could here,
my voice whispering in the air,
calling your name for you to here,
all the things that keep me near.
are all the things you say so can here,
the one that wont let me get a buzz.
is my true cuzzen that gives a fuzz.
afraid to leave

Afraid to leave,
when I'm sixteen,
I can't believe this day is here,
The day I look back, all in fear,
The day has come were I say goodbye,
Knowing some day I to will die,
I look at him with his hair so smooth,
he looks at me trying to be all cool,
with a twinkle in his eyes, he grabs my hand,
and seas,
don't worry my love your wish is my command.
Friday, March 26, 2010
my love

All my love goes to Drew,
my love for him is so true,
he makes me smile when im down,
he makes sure I have no frown,
he smiles when I smile, I laugh when he giggles,
hes voice so sweet, he stomps to the beet,
every breath he takes, every move he makes,
Lets me fall into a world with no hate,
He loves me to death, wile my eyes start to close,
I whisper to him,
oh darling oh darling, I LOVE YOU SOOO.
cuzz sets free
Thursday, March 25, 2010
feelings

I lay awake,
staring into the night sky outside my window.
I see the shadows on the moon.
The way the trees dance in the wind.
The rustling of the leaves rolling on the grown.
But when I listen there is no sound.
I press my face up to the glass.
It feels so cold and gloomy.
I try not to stare at the night sky.
But the way it sparkles,
ketches my eye,
I think for a very long time,
and try not to hide,
all the things I felt inside.
love you cuzz

cuzz for life.
I love you cuzz from the bottom of my heart.
Even from the very start.
In the beginning we had no clue,
that my cuzz would be you,
your that star ,
that came true,
your that star light,
that makes sky blue.
I have a good day when we smile,
I have a grate day every once and a wile.
Know that I have a cuzz like you,
makes my dreams all come true.
you have shone me right and wrong,
You told me to follow my heart,
I should have listened from the start,
I love you dear,
my favorite cuzz.
The one that was sent from above.
Because of you I found TRUE LOVE.
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Wednesday, March 24, 2010
my loving couzin

I love my cuzz to death. I found out I am leaving to go to florida with my boyfriend I dont want to make her sad we both have gone threw a lot of things me and her are the best of friends any one could have. I love you vicky my dearest cuzz.... you will always be my family no matter what I will try and come and see you. You aare that true friend.
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